40oz at dusk and 16 at dawn; this is the cycle of my addiction.

i paid off all my bills last night, which is good because i was really uncomfortable around my roomates for a bit. they should not have been so insistant on me paying the bills as soon as they arrived. last month jess payed the bill late and she had to pay more this month as a consequence. why should me doing the same thing be any different. i just feel like they had no reason to put such pressure on me. i have always payed my bills as soon as i could. except when i was living with my mom. i gypt her a few bucks one paycheck, but i paid her double on the next check. i'm sorry mom, i love you.

good grief, toronto.

i went to work yesterday an hour early by accident. then i signed up for vto. i thought i got off at 4:30 when i really i was supposed to be off at 5:30. i got a call that lasted until 4:45 and i got vto pretty much when that call ended. if i hadn't taken that call that lasted 15 'extra' minutes i would have just walked out of here an hour early and that would not have been good.

i start at 6:00 monday which means i get an extra half hour of rest before work.

so...smoking: even though yesterday was totally, totally bunk i managed to smoke only 5 cigarettes. and it was not even too hard to do. i had my morning cigarette on my drive to work and half of one about 15 minutes ago. i'm gonna shoot for three for today.

gayyyyyyyyy

i hate people way more ever since i started working at stream. i realized the reason i don't like the woman who sits beside me, is because of her face and her eyebrows.

that's not cool.

maybe a raised by wolves concert would help.

this coffee is giving me gut-rot.

nothing has happened. nothing. is that hard to believe. yep, still broke, although it's getting better, still working at stream, but i'm trying to get a new job, still smoking, but on a whim this morning, i quit.

so yeah, this would be my third "i'm going to quit" in total. apparantly, it take the average smoker 7-10 times to try to quit to actually quit. the fact that i heard that statistic will probably affect my ability to quit until i've tried 7 to 10 times. it's dumb, but since i heard that i've been convinced that i can't quit until i've tried to quit at least seven times. if they say it's true on tv, it must be true.

it's payday today. wish me luck.

i just thought of fishsticks, but i had no opinion on them one way or another.

i have a break at work, and i can't smoke.